Before I ever understood depression I always thought that it was a state of sadness, just another word for another emotion.

But actually experiencing depression first hand was more than I had imagined! I remember it starting around the age of 18 or 19. I try to think back on events to see what triggered it…

What I came up with is… I lacked the ability to love, trust, and believe in myself. So when things hit the fan and blew up in my relationships I spiraled!

I was hurt… I was betrayed… I was taken advantage of and it hurt me so bad that someone could treat me that way… specifically the person who told me, “I love you”…