Living with anxiety and depression, oh and being bipolar…

Living with anxiety and depression, oh and being bipolar…

Dealing with my mental health is comparable I think to a game of seesaw… expect I’m the only person playing.

I mean, for the most part, I am pretty functional… no one knows what I deal with unless I choose to share with them… Most days it seems I’m just sitting and waiting for the next episode, and when it arrives it’s a constant fight of who’s going up and who’s going down…

Anxiety is having thoughts that I don’t want in my head running and running until they stumble from exhaustion. It’s feeling fearful and doubtful and self-loathing…

Depression is feeling completely useless, unworthy, and hopeless… no sense of ambition… just an emptiness that engulfs my entire being.

Being bipolar are those moments when I’m like sooo elated and like OMG, all this energy and I just want to daaaaance. LALALALA I’m so productive, look at me getting sh*t done. I’m just freaking AWEEESome. My mind is racing and like, I’m here and here and I’m there too. But then it’s over…… and I guess I’m okay… and I mean I’m chilling I guess, yawn.. blahh. I could go do something but… yeah probably not, I’ll just sit right here.

I can honestly say that my mental health has definitely improved and every day I am learning ways to manage myself. This journey has been lonely, frustrating, and confusing but don’t give up on yourself; no one can love you better than YOU… I can’t wait to share more, til next time 😉

2 thoughts on “Living with anxiety and depression, oh and being bipolar…

  1. I suffer from all of the above and no one ever knew! I use to be able to mask it, put on a brave face and go out into the world and pretend like nothing was wrong!! I was diagnosed with a autoimmune disease called Graves Disease a couple years ago and things started getting harder to mask kind of uncontrollable really!! I can honestly say I’m better in certain areas than I was a year ago!! There’s still a lot to work on but I’m just taking it one day at a time!!

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    1. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️that’s all we can do, I think the more we open ourselves up and we’re truthful and honest about who we are the easier it becomes to deal with ourselves and our issues

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