Why do we oppose being in our feelings?? I mean… I can understand why we do… but ultimately there is no reason to.

Our emotions are speaking a truth within us that we sometimes can not figure out… and that usually puts us in a state of frenzy, impulse, and disregard for ourselves and others…

Yes, it can seem difficult because our emotions can put us in that state of uncertainty… and a lot of us don’t know how to handle those emotions…

For some, as children, we were unconsciously told to shove our emotions somewhere far away where they could not be seen or heard and to present ourselves in a manner that says

“I am okay, even though I am not…”

 

“I won’t cry, even though I’m hurting…”

 

“Someone did something to me that I did not like, but I’ll just be quiet instead.”

AND THAT IS EXACTLY HOW WE LIVE OUR LIVES! (as adults)… and it’s just not okay. And in some area of your life it is showing… trust and believe.

If you look at some ppl you would think they were living their best life. I mean really…

But all the while what you really see is a person who is caged by their own mind and imprisoned by the thoughts of who they should be… Rather than who they are.

And there are soooo many other ways that we have been unconsciously and consciously conditioned but we are not aware yet… but then again some of us are and it just takes a little more time to learn those important lessons we need in life.

But if no one has said it to you today (or ever) just know that what you are feeling is okay and crying about it is ok… feeling upset is ok… feeling sad is okay… IT IS OKAY TO FEEL.

So practice being mindful of YOUR feelings! They ARE important. Who to take better care of you than you! Address the issue, walk into your truth… listen to yourself…  if you do not listen to yourself how do you expect others to listen to you?

Where are the beautiful people?

Where have the beautiful people gone?

Being beautiful is more than just looks.

Being beautiful is something that comes from within… it is something that I think a lot of us have a hard time sharing, because maybe we feel as though we are not.

The way you treat others and the way you treat yourself reveals a lot about your inner beauty.

Feeling beautiful can be a feeling you get from others and yourself based on your outward appearance… and there is nothing wrong with that… but what happens when that beauty fades?? what happens when something/someone comes and alters that feeling??

And all you are stuck with is a canvas… that use to be beautiful.

When you are a beautiful person within no one can change that.

No one has the power to take that from you, as long as you don’t allow it.

Beauty is showing gratitude and respect to all living things.

Beauty is the upbeat rhythm playing in your heart and soul because you have all the confidence and faith in yourself and your God.

Beauty is the soul that gives and takes love.

Beauty is the person that you are and that you fighting to become.

You don’t have to have perfection to be beautiful…

Just some love… for yourself.

love me.

When you tell me you love me… mean it.

If you love me, you love all of me… the good, the bad, and the ugly.

Because it’s a fact that we aren’t perfect people… but that’s the beauty.

Love is understanding. Love is communicating. Love is giving. Love is forgiveness.

I want you to love on my intellect the same way you love on my body…

Caress my thoughts. Cradle my heart.

Look beyond my seductive eyes, my luscious lips, and my winding hips.

When you tell me you love me… mean it.

I Love You

Before I ever understood depression I always thought that it was a state of sadness, just another word for another emotion.

But actually experiencing depression first hand was more than I had imagined! I remember it starting around the age of 18 or 19. I try to think back on events to see what triggered it…

What I came up with is… I lacked the ability to love, trust, and believe in myself. So when things hit the fan and blew up in my relationships I spiraled!

I was hurt… I was betrayed… I was taken advantage of and it hurt me so bad that someone could treat me that way… specifically the person who told me, “I love you”…

My favorite movie!

“There are a lot of people in this world who have bad trouble. We happen to be three of those people. We could sit around the rest of our lives and live on that trouble and we’d get to where we’d have nothing else because we wanted nothing else.”

-Joe Tilford

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I just finished watching my favorite movie, The Children’s Hour. Starring Audrey Hepburn, Shirley MacLaine, and James Garner. I have seen this movie so many times and enjoyed it… but never have I perceived it the way I did tonight. It is truly a good movie. I can only imagine living in such a time struggling with your identity and sexual orientation.

-Also, I love Audrey Hepburn ❤