My voice feels caged.

My thoughts are not my own.

Withdrawn from the world I knew.

Enslaved in a body that is not of me…

says my SOUL



this time they stayed.

this time they did not fade away as I dried my face

this time I can not forget.

the words you used to strangle me,

are now a part of me

the pained body

the pained body

Every pain I’ve had I’m still holding onto, as if the pain were pleasure.

The familiarity of it must be what feels so good… the one thing that remains constant.




Just as a flower’s life…

       there are relationships that will bloom and there are others that will wither.

Just as the gardener tends her garden…

       there is a time to tend, a time to salvage, and a time to let go.




When you lose yourself…
When you become unsure of yourself… When you become unsure of the company you keep…

It’s time… it’s time for solitude. Recapture yourself. You have to disconnect from the external noises… and PLUG YOURSELF INTO YOURSELF!!

That means it’s time to step away from the drugs, it’s time to step away from social media… and sometimes that includes family… sometimes that includes friends.

We have to nourish our mind, body, and soul… mind you the saying isn’t just “body”… it’s “MIND, BODY, AND SOUL”…

no one says it’ll be easy because it’s not… especially in our black community. We need better, we deserve better, the change starts from within yourself…

I am tired of seeing us run this cycle where we exclude our mental/emotional well being…



I am grateful for my being.

I am grateful for the health of my body.

I am grateful for the experiences that have evolved my mind, soul, and body.

I am grateful for my children.

I am grateful for my compassion and understanding. (So that I may not hold on to bitterness or ill feelings, because with the power of compassion and understanding comes forgiveness and with forgiveness there is love and with love, you are accepting and when you accept you are truthful…)

I am grateful for patience.

🙂 SM



Everyday you get up, you have the chance to fight AGAIN!

Whatever the problem was yesterday… TODAY you have been blessed with the kiss of life.

Do better, be better! And you can’t be afraid.

You can’t be afraid to say “Hey, I don’t like this. I want to change this. How do I change it? How do I help myself?”